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Wednesday, September 12, 2007, 1:19 AM
Been neglecting this webby for quite awhile, i dont really know why, but somehow i get the idea. I dont mean to be a wet blanket and all, but im somehow amused at how this works. The reason why some of us just sit down on our own and emo-ing away, maybe its the coffee ? or my tired brain cells telling me im sleepy and making me feel all this so i would just close my eyes and end the day. Would that be our conclusion ? Im not the type that runs from problems, no matter be it small or big. I find running away a complete FLAW in human nature, but in itself is a human nature so there's no running away from it either. Everyone's changing, can you find someone who's real ? Yes im saying we should face everything head on, disregarding the facts about losing/gaining face. Why care about that? argh, back to topic. It'll just be some extra thing crawling under your skin, waiting to pop out another time. What do you want to protect & do u succeed in doing so by running? The best way to protect something from danger, is not to stay by that something forever, but to kill the very thing that dangers it. Of course we dont live in the ages where swords were a must to carry around to protect oneself. But the core principles STILL DO apply in our current everyday lives. Agreed ? Im in no position to pivot the balance of this cycle in anyway but im just talking to this blank piece of page on the WWW. Its been like, ping ping pong pong months since ive emo-ed this badly. Sometimes i just want to let everything down, screw the hopes and dreams, and believe fully in something i will never know might exist. But without hope & dreams ? i'd be a monkey, not human. Thats why God, or whoever is out there controlling those atoms gave/formed a brain. TO THINK, MAKE CHOICES, so that PROBLEMS can be FACED. & then, there's the heart. Not the one that has red juice pumped in and out of it, but the one ♥ that resides around roughly the same spot, the one which CAN overide our oh so powerfull brain. So its like this, i wake up in the morning and put my cold feet to the floor, remembering im pretending to who im not anymore, forgetting about my yesterday. The sound of your voice, painted on my memories. Even if your not with me, im with you. Its like, comparing a wild flower to a hybrid. At a beauty contest, the judges marvel at the beauty of the hybrid. Yes, its been altered to fit our fancies, the finest it can get. But people, look at the wild flower. Think now, really which is the more worthy one, which if u have to let 1 of your loved ones have either one. Where does that feeling come from ? i dont know wad to call it, compassion ? greed perhaps ? or just plain antiquity ? Im going no where with this post, i too know there's no direct conclusion to this, im just winding around in circles. The caffein is running low, my eyelids are closing. & yes there it is, the fragrance. Its always there, who am i when i wake up hours later, what emotions do i carry through, whats on my mind the moment these visionary balls open. Well, lets leave it to the atoms. Milstein sorry couldnt make it for pool today, patrick u owe me a ear piece, jasmin ur not even a speck of dust to me now, sleep doesnt look appealing at all. (: know what ? im just afraid of tomorrow. :) |