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Yea obviously im here for no other reason, so how long its been since the last post ? Been quite smooth the past few weeks actually, maybe i knew something like this would happen from the very start but yet i took my own chances. I hate people who contradict themselves yet i do it sometimes myself. Pathetic yea? & here i thought i grew up to be someone worth something.

Its been well over a year since something similar and i really thought it'd never happen again. But everyone knows how conversations can lead you on, the surprises life throws at you every now and then. Didn't have a very good start this morning either since the minor incident at Ehub yesterday & to be honest i don't understand why i feel the way i do. Usually i know i'll be like, " its okay ; nothing big ; no probs! " but deep down inside hearing it really hit a nail. Maybe i really let myself go too far, its like knowing the odds are 6:1 but u go ahead anyways. Well maybe, i really was hoping for a miracle.

I guess we see things differently although so many aspects of our lives are so similar. The cheerful times were happy, i admit. To me it was like lost emotions being found, and that was when i guess i lost myself too. And like many times before this i guess i'll let time carry a feeling so strong like this away again. We might never talk again for all i know, and the future is definitely uncertain. But right now even a little hope will suffice.

Gone like a beautiful stranger ; its the last appeal.