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Ahh ~ troubling times are coming again. Its like 1 after another never ending, barely been a month since lijia broke up with me, now what.. for so long none of this ever affected the relationship between 'clique' but things seem to be getting so much deeper. If a friendship were to last long, it'd be really long. Now i see what kind of troubles 'friends' will have to go through.

Sometimes, you always want to repay back the kindness ppl show to you when your in a pinch. True? but once things go out of hand & its beyond the level of closeness you share, what do you do? I admit that these people tried their best to keep lijia by my side, for one thing maybe if she did return to my side i might not see the amount of effort they put in. But the fact that she's no longer here also allows me to see what they tried, what they thought of & what they were prepared to do to help me get back my smile.

These are what friends that truly care do, they go the extra mile for you even though they have nth to gain out of it. I swear if i never met this bunch of ppl i wouldn't know what to do either. From what used to be 8 now leaves only 6, i really don't wish to see the number dwindle anymore. Be it girl or guy their all really the ones who you can trust with everything. I made a mistake with my actions, it cost us 1 dear friend, it cost me my dearest girl.

Looking at the old photos really brings back memories & i still do wonder why it ended up like this. However, i guess everyone has moved on right now. Lijia is as happy as ever, 'clique' lifestyle hasn't really changed much. Just a little shift in habits thanks to school's nonsensical timetables. So yea, lets stop here with the sad memories and happenings.

Woke up at 3.30pm today, thon last night and only got to sleep around 6am this morning. Went to ehub with parents for lunch then 418 to play basketball. Candice came to find me today again, said she was boring and i had to explain how to get here to her again for the 3rd or 4th time already. Than that stupid chicken mother try bluff everyone that she's my girlfriend. Just cause she's wearing my jacket, not everyone is as dumb as you la okay !

Played basketball for 5mins before getting my 2 fingers jammed which spoiled practically the whole day for me. Wei long came over with wenfen shortly later, seems she and candice talked quite abit. Haha quite fast at making friends ah chicken mother. Then slacked all the way till 10.30pm there, seems like an amazingly long time. But we really did just sit there.

Okay lost inspiration to type any longer, no topic left either. Need to think of where to go tomorrow also.

Friends were close by then,
i didn't have to shout to make them notice.
But right now they dont even know im here screaming out to them.