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I feel like dropping everything like a stone,
i feel like changing over a new leaf,
i feel like running away from everything,
i feel like shutting everything out from my sight,
i feel out of breath out of hope out of solutions,
But even if i let go everything i never thought i would be so affected by 1 thing.

I never did put it to heart,
because i thought i knew everything about you.
But when the facts stare at me face to face,
im dumbfounded, desperate, clueless on what to do.
Half of me is finding where i stand,
the other half just wants the smile to stay where it is.

I fell so hard once,
took awhile to recover from the wounds.
Least when i expected,
im now free falling to what seems to be a bottomless pit.

Amidst the chaos & the confusion,
there's 1 part of me thats very clear.
I doubted this Barry for quite awhile,
thinking it was a phase thats going to pass.

Swayed by words i see,
pushed by emotions i feel.
Dragged by feelings i can't understand,
stabbed by the pain of memories i put behind.

I've become someone i can't be.
Breaking down has never been so eminent.
But i know i can never accept this fact,
No, i will never accept the way things are going.

Now my insides are all turned to ash, so slow.
And the ray inside collapsed, so cold.
Than the clouds above moved closer, looking so dissatisfied.
But the heartless wind kept blowing, and i used to be my own protection.
No, not now.

I'll give up my rank, i'll give this life up, i'll forsake all my friends,
to change this path i see coming, cause i see what's important now.
I might not have the broken parts i need to see, but i'll fix up this puzzle.
Cause im very certain, i have the smile you need to go this journey without regret.
Start over..

Im more heartbroken than sad,
Im more sad than worries,
Im more worried than bothered,
Im more bothered than heartbroken.

But at the end, you'll always be a part of me.
Time really flew, and now i know what i should do.
It really was only a matter of time.