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So yeahs, many unhappy things happened today. Had to see a what i thought was a close friend leave, for good. But i can tell it brought everyone else closer together, so here's a promise from me to you guys. I wont let any of you down. I'll do my part and i'll do it good.

Completed 1 compo and im here to blog, practically have enough of typing and im alrdy exhausted from everything today. Tomorrow i have a meeting with SH, not going to go smoothly i propose. Need to prepare many things before that, i'm nt gonna serve myself on a silver platter.

Julia's BBQ at night, hope nothing happens. But like 2 of my friends say, come out chiong is like that wan. Who know's how Barry boy is going to die 1 day, but it don't matter at all. Cause even if you tell me that i only have 5mins left after pressing publish on this webpage left to live i'll just lie on my bed smoking my last stick away smiling and remembering every face i know. My friend's are my most impt thing in life.

Slowly fading like leaves off the old maple tree,
i so very much want to tell you i love you.
But i'm afraid of the answer,
So i'd rather remain behind and love you from afar.
Because i never want to wake up to the day,
knowing i can't love you anymore.

I very much feel like dying right now.