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From the depths of my heart, here's a post to confirm myself of who i am.
Here we go.

I spent my childhood, playing playing and playing. Thats all i can remember. From the latest gadgets to popular activities.

The more prominent memories, started when i was in secondary school. Meeting people, friends, lovers and more. Some who follow up with me till now. Eugene, for one. Who has remained my best friend and god brother from as long as i can remember knowing him. Thanks for being there whenever only people with that importance in my life can give assurance.

Being the way things were, without a god to direct how my life would proceed. I learnt the ways of a delinquent. Wasting my life away, destroying my future. Everyone around me at that point of time, told me i would regret it in the future. Brushing them off, i told everyone, i'm still young.

How i regret now, doing that. When everything's too late, when everything has gone wrong, when its time to redeem myself, when i need everything that needed to be right has gone wrong.

I always planned, knowing full well that 1 day. Someone or something, is going to walk right into my life and make me change. Thing is, 1 day in a lifetime is real hard to predict. That 1 day would summarize everything in the past 19years of my life to naught.

It'll hit you like a hammer, faster than a bullet. And than the regret comes. All said and done, im sitting here wondering to myself. If its too late to start anew? There are things in my life i can't shake off, things that become a part of you. Can i make it even with these conditions?

I have a girlfriend now. And lets all be honest, everyone reading this, all the people who know me. You all know what kind of person i am, what i do in my life. You're all expecting this to go the same way.

I'm going to prove everyone wrong.

What if i tell you, that i'd stop this car and get out. And walk with you till the road ends. Would you hold my hand ?

Looking at the pictures of you. My heartaches so much, the yearn to be who you need me to be.
And the smile i see on your face, that melts my heart each and every time.
The only thing i feel with each embrace is just the want to have more.

Nu ren nu ren wo da ying zuo ge hao ren
Wo da ying yong wo yi sheng lai huan ni de kuai le yi sheng.