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My mind's..... Blank.. Its like, i can't think of anything. Not even those of troubles and worries. But its not the kind of blank, where as i just sit there thinking of nothing and staring at nothing. Its blank, in you. Looking at you, wondering what to do, thinking of what miserable help i can be to you. And the answer pops up in my face the exact same way my failed BTT result did, than i go blank.

On repeat this playlist went. Yeah we're smiling, laughing, cuddling in each other's presence. Its the same theory as how people enjoy themselves aboard a cruise ship while the anchor is down at the oceans floor. Its the same dragging feeling i get when i look at you. Worrying with all my might wouldn't solve anything and in turn adds on to the burden.

I've even lost inspirations to start my silly poems. That take aeons to figure out and an understanding of my life to decipher. Cause when it comes to you, love is as simple as it is complicating, which sums up the gist of it all. I want you to be happy. Saying something so foolish hardly comes close to it really happening but yet its really all i want you to be.

This isn't a post to show i'm sad, let me tell everyone reading. I'm happy ! Probably more now than ever before. Yet, i don't know whats the purpose of this particular post. What kind of emotions i wish to convey to the readers, what kind of situation i want to portray to everyone. 1 thing that might have the minority of people understand, would be the chance that they too have been through something like in their life before. It isn't a traumatic experience, i'm in fact thankful for it.

But you can't shape shift emotions just like that. All these words are ironically just bytes and data through the internet. And this time and day, i wonder why isn't there a reply, if you are okay, if everything's fine, if something's about to happen, if you remembered me.

So maybe we just figured out, why this sudden topic. And maybe we didn't ? The night's still young, i'm going to go have a cup of coffee, sit down in my living room with my phone by my side. And hope that tonight, i'll have the luck of telling you..

Goodnight & Sweetdreams, i love you.